Hey guys, we’ve has some stressful life stuff going on over here as Casa Bucior the past few weeks. First on the list, we had to say goodbye to my sweet fluffy old man Octavian. He’d been with me since I was a senior in high school, and he’s been there for every major life event for the past fourteen years. I want to say that I handled the situation stoically and gracefully, but I didn’t. There is a hole in our home, and even two weeks later, I’ll still burst into tears because something reminds me of him. It’s getting better with time, as these things tend to do, but grief isn’t something that happens on a specific timeline and all I can do is put one foot in front of the other and work through it.
In addition to the fur baby sadness, things have also been progressing rapidly with my father’s estate. As the anniversary of his death looms, I have been trying to juggle selling his house, closing out his accounts, and making sure that all the necessary paperwork is being filed. We started all of this months ago, but it has all bottle-necked into the last two weeks and fielding emails and phone calls, taking meetings, signing paperwork all while trying to juggle not only the day to day at my job but the huge deadline push we’re scrambling to make… it fell apart a bit. I ended up having a breakdown in my therapists office and having to take a sick day because I was physically and emotionally exhausted. And of course, everything fell apart while Andy was traveling for work, so the poor guy had to listen to my tearful phone calls without the power to do anything to make it better. When I picked him up from the airport, I honestly can’t tell you which of us was happier for him to be home.
So that’s the short version of what’s been going on and why I haven’t been around. On the upside, the holidays are right around the corner and that has been helping me shake off some of my stress and sadness. I can’t wait to see what will unfold in the next few weeks.
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