As we slide into May, things seem more uncertain now than ever. How am I doing? Oooof… that is a very complicated question that usually changes several times a day. I imagine I am doing the same as most everyone else right now. Some moments are great – I feel like I am making progress on my different projects and can maintain the illusion that things are at least somewhat “normal” -, and others? Not so much. I typically present as this laid back go-with-the-flow kind of person, but in reality, I am a planner. I like knowing what is happening when so I can have contingency plans. Having established that, to me, like many others, the struggle is very real; here is what is going on in my life currently.
Cleaning – I’ve been on administrative leave for the past few weeks so I have been working on larger projects around the house, but I found out late last Friday that my department is being set up to telecommute in an effort to keep us all at home and safe for a little longer. Which is fantastic news frankly. I am going to miss admin leave, but I am 100% behind making the telecommute work if it means I don’t have to go back into a government building with hundreds of other people.
Wishing – Things weren’t so crazy. Usually my mom spends Mother’s Day here in Tallahassee, but even though Andy and I are both honoring the “stay at home” directive, Tallahassee has a much higher infection rate than where my mother lives. She is in her sixties, and as much as I miss her, I would rather her be as safe as possible. We are hopefully going to be seeing her in late July, early August for her birthday. For now, we make do with phone calls and text messages.
Craving – Face time! Not the sort that comes with your phone, but legit sitting across from a friends and inhabiting the same space. Missed birthday celebrations, postponed projects, cancelled trips… it’s nice that we have so much technology to keep us connected, but I want to be able to hug my friends and throw a big catch up party. Safely though: as strong as the urge is, I won’t be doing any of these things until I can be sure we won’t be putting anyone at risk. We gotta keep each other safe.
Wearing – All of the comfy clothes. I have two baskets in the bottom of my closet for “house clothes” which are mostly stretchy shorts and yoga pants and old tank tops and t-shirts. I don’t know if they’ve ever gotten this much of a work out. I put on real clothes maybe once a week? I recently heard someone in a similar situation, refer to their regular jeans as “hard pants” and had to grudgingly acknowledge that it is going to suck when I have to start worrying about things like zippers and waistbands again.
Sending – Snail mail. Along with texts and Facetime, I have been sending letters and care packages to loved ones. I don’t care how old you are, it’s still exciting to open your mailbox and find something unexpected and positive.
What is going on in your life currently?